This I’ve been doing for a week and it seems to prolong the boredom I feel in life right now. My life is so scheduled and repetitive in which I definitely dislike. At 5:40 am I would wake up, take a shower, get dressed, and prepare for breakfast. Before 7:00 am, I walk 50 meters and reach a road and ride a vehicle to the office. At the office, I sit down and work, work, work till 3:00 pm strikes. And my work? It’s the never ending compilation of porn materials, who would be happy at the thought of it? Unless you’re a porn addict, this project would thrill you. As for me, I kinda want to protest about it .After duty, I’d go ahead back to home, boarding house actually but I’d prefer to call it a home. In one weeks time I almost memorize the banners and streamers along the way. Arriving home alone, I’d open the gate and welcome myself in. I’d sit for a while and decide to listen to music. Sometimes I’d nap and wake up at 4:30 - 5:00 pm. But that is rare to happen, when I’m not sleeping, I immediately go for a drink (milk) and prepare for supper, I eat supper around 5:30 to 6:00 pm. After fixing the kitchen, I’d fix myself, wash my face and all the stuff a woman do following her daily regimen. After that? It’s too early to go to bed, sometimes I do laundry and scrub the floor. When nothing is left to do, I would lie down and read a novel. Thanks to a friend who happily lends her books to me. And then my housemate would arrive also from their work, tired. We would chat for a while and get back to scanning the book I’m reading ,until I became drowsy and feel asleep. But before that I would prepare my bag for morrows work. I would wake up tomorrow with the same flow of scenes. Till one day while walking for home I was telling myself. This is so boring and so predictable. Isn’t it wrong to pray for challenges to come along? I feel so static. I want something new. I want some action in my life, something thrilling, suspense and mixed with drama. I want to worry sometimes, to think about something. “God, is it wrong to ask some changes in my life?”

I cannot forget how the movie ‘Cinema Paradiso’ left a remarkable influence in my life.Since the day I got to watched it, I become so delighted about its story and its protagonist and the love of his love. The movie opened up my mind and wondered if true love does really exist.The movie exemplifies about the necessity to let go of the past.The protagonist wouldn’t know how to let go. He is unfortunately trapped from the past.Even though he became so wealthy and all his material needs are meet,sadness can be glimpse at his face. Almost all pretty women would run after him but this does not satisfies him.After learning that his first love is married to his bestfriend, he soon realized that he need to get a life and start a new one.It’s true that first love is hard to forget and it’s impossible to forget them either but it’s crazy to wait and expect for the old flame to come back. We need to get up from our feet so we can recover and be whole again. Back to the movie, I suggest you watch it, it will really move you. It is a 1988 film and it centers about love, friendship, family, art (making of movies). It won an Oscar Award of Best Foreign Language Film, Best Film,Best Music, Actor of the Year on 1991 and

There is a guy I named ‘another pain’. It is only I who knows this since I never
shared it to anyone. Let’s say I have had a bad experience in lovelife a year ago,a heartbreaking letting go of someone. And after a while I finally give in into falling in love again (not that deep kind of feeling, it was just an attraction maybe) to a guy named ‘another pain’.I named him that way simply because I can feel that he is another pain or who would just add pains maybe because he cannot love me back.
Anyway, I’m not asking him for that.That’s too much.
There are so many another pains in the world. They are everywhere, unstoppable and their number continues to grow. The more another pain, the more tears to flow. LOL

I thought of you today and reflect on the good things
life has brought since you came. I would like to show you
what you have made to me and would like to thank you for these things.
Thank you for watching my direction and for following me whenever I tend to stumble
Thank you for telling me that these words exists: hope, love and faith
Thank you for seeing my worth
Thank you for making me believe that there is love after it has lost
Thank you for making my eyes glow again
Thank you for making me feel that I am needed and of importance
Thank you for making me feel that I’m in my best every time I smile
Thank you for finding me
Thank you for showing me these things and that love is worth sacrificing and worthbelieving
Thank you for making me feel that I still deserve to be loved

There are times that I cannot escape to the idea of how bad being single is, not that really bad but there are disadvantages of not having a partner. In every situation there are advantages and disadvantages but let me tell you few disadvantages of being one.

1. No one to carry your bags when you’re going shopping
2. No one to help you choose which sandal suits to you
3. No one would assist you when you are riding a vehicle
4. No one to tell you if the dress you wear looks nicely to you
5. No one to call you just to say goodnight
6. No one to wake you up with a text message of good morning
7. No one to visit you when you are sick or something is happening to you
8. No one to check if you have arrive home safely
9. No one to remind you to eat every meal
10. No one to scold you when you stayed late at night
11. No one to hug
12. No one to kiss
13. No one to share your deepest emotions
14. No one to listen to your every word
15. No one to cry on
16. No one to fetch you up at the office
17. No one to stare at you for a longer time
18. No one would say ‘I love you’
19. No one to give cards and letters and flowers
20. No holding hands where you feel safe
21. No one to love
22. No one to spend time together

These are just what my heart tells me so at the moment, but this does not mean to be true at all times, these statements could change any time until I fall again.

Our company’s Christmas Party took place last December 20, 2008 in a distinguished restaurant in the City. It run very well with gowns and coat and tie worn by my respected co-workers (I’m in the white gown). Everybody looked so fabulous and elegant so I make sure to keep some pictures of the said event. Above are few copies for you to view.

While I was listening to music over the radio, I heard a familiar song that’s been played several times. But only then that I realized what was truly the meaning of the song, It was indeed a meaningful song, it’s like a man is lovely serenading the love of his life, and the words it utter is uniquely crafted with words that will surely make women swept off with a smile when offered such a song. It makes a woman know her value, her worth and I’m sure woman would like that that they know that someone needs them. So here, I searched on the full lyrics of the my new added favorite song in my lists.

Time Will Reveal

What can I do?
To make you feel secure
Remove all your doubts
So that you’ll know for sure that you’re the apple of my eye, girl
Fulfillment of my dreams
Time, will show the value
Of just what you mean to me
More precious than silver
More precious than diamond rings or anything that I can give you
It wouldn’t mean a thing
If you didn’t have my love beside you there to guide you through
Well it is good to know you do

I know just how you feel
Well this time love’s for real
In time it will reveal
That special love that’s deep inside of us all will reveal in time

I tell you I love you, but you don’t believe it’s true
More precious than silver
More precious than diamond rings or anything that I can give you
It wouldn’t mean a thing
If you didn’t have my love beside you there to guide you through
But it is good to know you do, ahh

I know just how you feel
But this time love’s for real
In time it will reveal
That special love that’s deep inside of us will all reveal in time

I know just how you feel
But this time love’s for real
In time it will reveal
That special love that’s deep inside of us all will reveal in time

Da da da…
Or anything that I could give you
It wouldn’t mean a thing
If you didn’t have my love beside you there to guide you through
Well it is good to know you do, ahh

I know just how you feel
But this time love’s for real
In time it will reveal
That special love that’s deep inside of us will all reveal in time

I know just how you feel
But this time love’s for real
In time it will reveal
That special love that’s deep inside of us will all reveal in time

Oh, that special love in us will all reveal in time
So let your little heart lay down upon me

I know just how you feel
But this time love’s for real
In time it will reveal
That special love that’s deep inside of us will all reveal in time